Why I keep making the same mistakes

Syel · 24 October 2026

You know better, though. You're already saying yes, typing the message, staying one more hour, and a small voice says: this has happened before.

In the moment, it doesn't look like last time. It's a different person, a different excuse, a good reason, and you tell yourself this time it's different. It's afterwards, when it settles, that you recognise the set. "Me again." That line pinches me a little, because you say it like you understood nothing.

But you did understand. You can see the thing, you can even describe it. What moves too fast is the hand: it goes before what you know has time to catch it. It's old, it knows the way by heart. And every time you tell yourself you never learn, when you do. You just arrive right after.